And on some days, your ex-father-in-law calls you at work to remind you that he still loves you and that you're always welcome to come visit him in Arizona.
Man.
I confess that one of the hardest parts is missing that family. I knew them for close to half of my life. I still talk now and then to a sister-in-law or get a facebook message from a niece or nephew or even a call from his grandma so deep in dementia that she thinks we're still together. "Sorry grandma, he's at class. Why don't you try his cell..."
It's not avoidance really. It's partly keeping myself out of the gossip. Accepting that someone else has stepped hard into my old spot. And maybe not putting myself into a situation where I let it slip exactly how much lying bullshit I was dealt during that marriage.
Anyway, I thanked him for checking in, told him that I loved him too, and promised to let him know if I was in the area.
Awww man, life is tough some days.
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